Wednesday, November 14, 2007
was tryin to read my trauma-tic readings, when suddenly i felt the urge to blog.. :))
had a fantastic 21st bday though i din haf any party like most ppl did..juz a simple rushed dinner @ e arts canteen w my uni peeps b4 our forensic lect on the 9th, a simple dinner w my tjchoir people on the 10th, and a simple lunch / dinner w my family on the actual day..and, i still feel blessed. :))
the point of this blog post, is to tell every1 hu haf been concerned that i think i haf really moved on..-hurray!- duno if its sense-able, but i think im back to my past cheerful self, minus the depressed me..which is good..n i really wanna thank those hu haf been ard, supporting me durin my most down period, and helped me survive thr it! :)) you1, you2, you3, you4 & esp YOU.
and i thank God for tis too, as i felt that i've grown since it happened.
and so anw, tis will most probably b the last blog post on tis blog address, as tis blog holds memories, and i dunwan the new ones to b mixed within the old. if i ever decide to blog again, i'll post up my new address (which i highly doubt so..hahahahhaha)
semester is ending. tis sem is busy like nobody's business, and i haf flared up at you1 tat i love.
n yet, you1 is the nv gave up on me. hahaha & instead ask me not to be so stress.
n coz of your1 love n christianly testimony, i've decided to suppress my horrible temper. n i think i succeeded, esp at you1 noe hu. :))
n you1 made me feel loved, as you1 shared w me your1 almost deepest secrets that you1 nv shared w any1 else (b4 me tat is), and im grateful that i can be your1 listening ears & touched that u feel im mouth-tight enuff for u to share w me.
you1 r the 1 hu accompanied me at bk until late at nite durin my lowest period, listening to me whine n whine n whine non-stop bout e same thing.
you1 r the 1 hu saw my tears oh-so-frequently.
you1 r the 1 hu promised to msg me everyday coz i was complainin tat i haf no msgs (which u conveniently stopped once u see me better HUH. hahaha)
you1 r the 1 hu spent many slpless nites w me at SMU & makin me e president & janitor of Last Minute Club. HAHAH
you1 r the 1 hu haf e same bedsheet as me n the 1 hu drives me to clementi mrt whenever you1 can.
too much to say la. n you1 r the horrible 1 demanding a doodle fren fr me when you1 selfishly say "i dun give any1 any." hahahahha which i will refuse to give you1. :)) n im the 1 hu got you1 to add the superlatives application. woot! -proud-
you1 know who you1 are. thank you1!!! :))
and you2, the 1 who haven send me the long overdue pics from the land of yesterday, today and fantasy, you2 hu appear offline constantly and nudge me rudely b4 you2 :), you2 who nv fail to make me smile / laugh at your2 crappiness no matter how down i was, you2 who introduced me to the addictive facebook -evil stare-, you2 hu eats at famous waterloo st chicken rice whenever im not (haha i insist on e full name), you2 hu finally appeared at the famous waterloo st chicken rice on 11th nov when im there just to gimme a brownie w icecream n make me blow at the fork like its a candle n made the whole hawker centre stare at me when you2 sang happy bday at the top of your2 lungs, you2 hu got urself a good bf hu passed "the best fren test of the bf", you2 hu agreed to share ur wkend car w me but ask me buy my own $20 coupon whenever i wan to use it, you2 hu i noe for less den 4yrs but i noe you2 will b my bestest fren for the rest of my life, you2 hu haf no choice but to make me ur bridesmaid, you2 hu is turning 21 today (15nov).
you2 noe know who you2 are..:)) HAPPY 21ST BESTEST!
and you3 who just turned 21st on the same day as me, you3 who loves to shop at the same places at me, you3 who dun read my blog, you3 who haf a damndamndamn good camera n photography skills (which so totally explains y em & me were blurred off for the pics you3 tagged in my facebook hahaha), you3 who is 1/3 of therarashop which has fossil-ed (quoted fr mabel), you3 who passed ur driving 1st time n made me soooo jealous, you3 who just got your scholarship for going to the china internship nxt sem n leavin me in spore all alone, you3 who invited me to ur 21st family bday party with ur 21st bday cake with ur name (luckily i din go), you3 who haf superb dress sense n make me feel like stealin ur whole wardrobe hm, you3 who went to cut hair at fareast even though i asked you3 to wait for me, you3 who dated me out so oftenly during my lowest period n make me spend, you3 who so wanted to get the f21 cap which is so unpractical and blamed me when you3 missed the cap (hahahaa), you3 who is so fierce at times esp during tat msn conversation, you3 who introduced me to Timmy at Timbre & Sherlyn at WalaWala, you3 who went bangkok w me n had the best of times w the other 1/3 of therarashop
you3 noe hu you3 are. i'll make sure i get you3 to read tis entry. :)) love you3 twinny!
and you4, the 1 who bounced with me while singing during tjchoir, the president of the "official" slack club of tjchoir, thus making me (w/o much of a choice), the vice president of the slack club, the 1 who sneak to the toilet w me halfway thr the choir practise till the president made up the rule of "going toilet 1 by 1", the 1 who loves choir so much that she sings choir songs everywhere, the 1 who i got pissed off in europe coz you4 juz refuses to put on more clothes to prevent yourself4 fr gettin sick n thus tat nite we slp in diff rms, the 1 hu took the initiative to come find me e v nxt day we slp separately knowing my stubborn character, the 1 who also asked me to go redang and went thr the horriblehorrible bus + speed boat ride juz to get to e pretty island, the 1 who i met in hk tis yr june and had to almost literally carry me back to my granny's place coz i was so extremely sick n in pain tat i cant walk nor eat, the 1 who dun study much n yet get excellent grades *envies*, the 1 who was so worried for me tat day i went to sit at the void deck at 3am+ to breathe n still tell me cold jokes like "u better go hm now..u see, got the ah pek there is starin at u at the corner!" n made me laugh like an idiot in e midst of my cryin. the 1 who is oh-so-artistic in her drawing & once again, *envies*, the 1 who gave me a car, literally coz i was whining about getting 1 and made me take pic w it (hahahhaa)
you4 noe who you4 are. lets go 4 another trip soon w the choir peeps darlin ger! :))
Lastly, YOU.
YOU are the 1 who made me feel surprised for so many times within tis short period, the 1 who 1st sent me one postcard which made me felt so surprised since i totally nv expect it. YOU are the 1 who then sent me another postcard which made me smile, coz i nv expect a postcard for the 2nd time (even though the msg was some funny nonsense that is totally nonsense, hahaha). and the "cheapo" message that YOU left for me at the wall of posts was ultimate la hahaha, which made YOU listen to me whine n whine n whine bout ur "cheapo" present. then, YOU made me smile with surprise when YOU called me at 12am sharp on my 21st & made me so happy. then, i received a msg fr her to open the present she passed me on fri, and, omg, i was totally shocked. extremely pleasantly surprised that YOU haf planned tis so long ago, which made me feel so touched, tat i teared. i cant believe YOU remember what i tell YOU i liked, and whined about coz it was all so embedded in our everyday conversation, which was the reason y i was so surprised. & happy. and then, YOU succeeded in making me smile like an idiot, again, when i received ur final present fr him, juz simply becoz YOU remember.
YOU know who YOU are. really. thank YOU. i've never felt so happy since it happened. and thank YOU for letting me realise, the world does not only revolve around him. :)))
and that concludes my last post to tis bloggie.
-takes a deep breathe-
im ready to face my new life. hello to a brand new start! -big smile- :)
Sunday, September 02, 2007
"one muz learn to let go abit bah"
its easier said den done.
i really want to let go, coz its torturous to have mood swings accordin to your availability.
i really want to move on, but you are in my thoughts majority of the time, awake or dream.
i really want to stop crying, but everytime i think of you, the hurt resurfaces.
i really want to concentrate, but how can i, when my thinking always drift to you?
free times are hated, as it is during these times that i sink back into depression.
cant get used to being single, its lonely.
desperate as i may sound..i really miss you..so much so tat i needed to vent it out into the blog tat i've abandoned.
15weeks - can u fly away at the blind of my eyes?
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
someone tell me.is there any point hangin on to a relationship, that has become 1-sided?is there any point gettin all depressed about things, when the person wun care?is there any point puttin myself through tis misery, n makin my frens worry?is there any place i can hide, and seek comfort, and not get reminded of the past?i haf lost confidence, self-esteem, and myself.someone tell me. is tis worth it? what is love anyway? i really duno.
Friday, April 27, 2007
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
today is the day tat everything seemed to go wrong.but nvm tsunting, things will only look better from this point on.God will lead me. :)*tis is juz a reminder post for myself.. :) *PS. *a big thank you to all who cared..:)*
Saturday, February 03, 2007
:: the one about friends ::so long since i last blogged, and the 1st once in a blue moon blog entry is gonna be an emotional one..juz finished my 2nd session of YRS yest.. had a great time! haa the joy of taking a kid to myself..the joy of not needing to facilitate and worrying about the response from the kids + volunteers..the joy of just sitting down and enjoying the session my wonderful committees planned..hahaha im sure the past committees will totally understand my joy..took a mildly autistic child tis sem..Aloysious is a challenging child..and he really tests my patience at times..the whole reading session he was drawing out the pictures in his book..not reading a single word..i was totally desperate..coz i din haf any experience in such a child..and im handling him alone..not knowing wad i can do..tried forcing him to read..was totally ignored by him..but from his drawings..i got to see his thinking..its a really unusual experience..whereby one's thoughts is captured in his drawings..he doesn't look at u when he speaks..so i gave him a star when he looked at me while replying the only one time..he was totally happy..and promised to continue looking at me to earn his stars..and..his promise was totally BROKEN..haa YRS is gonna be so different from next sem onwards..NONE of my frens r gg to appear anymore..ritchie, mabel, shaowei, tricia, kokyong are all going for exchange..with rich n mabs gg for one whole yr..mayi is not gg to appear due to her heavy schwork during her 3rd yr..putting me in a dilemma..YRS is part of my life..but without my frens..do i still go nxt yr? sigh..regrets..for not applying for SEP..now tat every1 is gg for exchange..im totally regrettin tat i din bother to check out e deadlines for application..until it was too late..everyone seems to noe wad they wan to do..wad about me?i seem to be juz living my life aimlessly..1 sem..2 sems..r gg to b over in a blink of eye..but still..im gonna miss you all..terribly..coz i'll b even more frenless den EVER..haa now tat so many ppl r gg b out of my life for a period of time..im starting to appreciate the time with them much more..i took it 4granted tat i'll get to see them every fri..now tat there r only 8more sessions left..its like counting down every wk..on another note..since so many of my frens r gg SEP..i should b expecting TONS of present fr them..HOR?hahaha :)
Thursday, November 23, 2006
o my gosh. tis is mad.FAITH & JASMINE finished their exams TODAY la. while im still struggling to squeeze wad i can into my tiny weeny brain. how m i supposed to study when EVERYONE ARD ME HAS ENDED?! -mad-i haf come up w a new tsunting's theory: our tiny weeny brain is only big enough to absorb ONE textbook..so stop tryin to force us to take 5 modules per sem, w more den 1 tb per mod for certain mods!!! coz we dun even haf e time to read it, let alone finish reading it, let alone get e facts into our tiny weeny brain!! ROARRRRR!!!!ok. enough said. im gg to go back to reading my tb, coz i 4got everything tat i studied 4 my midterms ya. so congratualations to myself!! if i can do well for tis sem, its really God's grace. haa everyone mug hard ya? :) e people hu made my crazy readings abit more entertaining are them. 
i would haf died w/o them keepin me entertained w their new heart-attack triggering stunts every day..haa ok, tats such an ironic statement..tis is wad preparations 4 e freaking mad exams does to me..hahahaaren't they ADORABLE?? :)aiyah..like elder sis like younger sibs ma..tats y!!!!hahaha-DON'T YOU DARE SAY THEY ARE NOT-
